Today is a hard day for me.
Today, two years ago, I lost my 39 week baby girl two days before her due date.
Today, two years ago, I had to call my parents to tell them what happened.
Today, two years ago, I had to check into the hospital to give birth to a stillborn.
Today, two years ago, I had to hear that there was no reason as to why.
Today, two years ago, I had to hear I was going to have a baby but not bring her home.
Today, two years ago, I birthed an 8 pound beautiful baby girl.
Today, two years ago, I held her, kissed her and told her that she's beautiful.
Today, two years ago, I gave her to the nurse to never see her again.
Today, two years ago, I cried more tears than I ever thought were possible.
Today, two years ago, I never thought I'd be OK again.
Today, one year ago, I found out I was pregnant.
Today, one year ago, my husband and I cried tears of sadness for our 1st daughter and tears of joy for our 2nd chance.
Today, one year ago, I convinced myself to NOT be scared.
Today, one year ago, I told myself that I was going to do my best to be positive.
Today, I have a beautiful baby girl named Madeleine Love
Today, I hold her and never want to put her down.
Today, I look at her and see her sister's face.
Today, I smile, I laugh, and love waking up in the morning.
Today, I'm thankful my husband and I stuck together through the hardest times in our lives.
TODAY, I never thought I could be happier.
While my wounds will never heal, It's so wonderful to love my life again.
-Carrie
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