Happy Happy Happy Halloween!

Just a few pics of our daytime costume. I'll have pics of our costume we wear later tonight up later! 

And, thanks for the photobomb, Macaroni! 

Nanny Notes

Nanny Adventures: Intro

For two months now I have been nannying for one of the most awesome families I have ever met.
When I started I understood that I would be watching the most precious baby girl in the world and
helping Carrie with 9Months. What I didn’t understand was that it would take approximately 2 weeks
to fall in love with Madeleine, I would gain a new four legged best friend, and I would miss the smell of
regurgitated Similac baby formula on the weekends.

A typical (six or seven hour) day in the life of trying to please Maddie Love consists of: giving her roughly
five bottles, changing about four diapers, and the ever daunting task of trying to warm a bottle before
her screaming reaches a record high decibel level. On a not so typical day you may find me sanding/
staining wooden pallets so they can be turned into a headboard, driving to the mall to buy numerous
candles, or making a DJ spin table out of cardboard (all during naptime, of course).

To sum up my first ever blog post, I will leave you with an incomplete list of things I have learned in my

two months as a nanny...
• Maddie is ALWAYS hungry
• EVERYTHING has been covered in spit up at one point (including Macaroni’s head)
• Animals love to eat spit up, normal humans gag when they smell it on your shirt after work
• Smiles are so rewarding

And a picture to show you my typical day... 

Today... One Year Ago

Today is a hard day for me. 

Today, two years ago, I lost my 39 week baby girl two days before her due date. 

Today, two years ago, I had to call my parents to tell them what happened. 

Today, two years ago, I had to check into the hospital to give birth to a stillborn. 

Today, two years ago, I had to hear that there was no reason as to why.

Today, two years ago, I had to hear I was going to have a baby but not bring her home. 

Today, two years ago, I birthed an 8 pound beautiful baby girl. 

Today, two years ago, I held her, kissed her and told her that she's beautiful. 

Today, two years ago, I gave her to the nurse to never see her again. 

Today, two years ago, I cried more tears than I ever thought were possible. 

Today, two years ago, I never thought I'd be OK again. 

Today, one year ago, I found out I was pregnant. 

Today, one year ago, my husband and I cried tears of sadness for our 1st daughter and tears of joy for our 2nd chance. 

Today, one year ago, I convinced myself to NOT be scared. 

Today, one year ago, I told myself that I was going to do my best to be positive. 

Today, I have a beautiful baby girl named Madeleine Love 

Today, I hold her and never want to put her down. 

Today, I look at her and see her sister's face. 

Today, I smile, I laugh, and love waking up in the morning. 

Today, I'm thankful my husband and I stuck together through the hardest times in our lives. 

TODAY, I never thought I could be happier. 

While my wounds will never heal, It's so wonderful to love my life again. 

-Carrie 

That One Time

.... I put my husbands mullet wig on my daughter. 

Pumpkins with my Punk'ins

We went pumpkin hunting! 

Fall in the country is pretty incredible. The colors, smells and chill in the air are amazing! 

Snaps From My Phone

While I get organized with my blogging, I decided to post some of my favorite iPhone snaps taken the last couple months.   

Starting to Blog

I used to have a blog that I updated nearly everyday and I really, really enjoyed it. I would post photos about my life and what I was doing and then share some thoughts, here and there. 

Because I have missed that part of my life, I decided to go ahead and start that up again... here! 

So feel free to follow along, comment, share ideas, etc. Id love to hear from you! 

I just ask that people be kind. I will erase comments that aren't. This is a positive site and I'll do my best to keep it that way. 

Cheers, everyone! 

Carrie